Assalamualaikum
As humans…We tend to judge…Am not saying it’s wrong…but please..Don’t judge OTHERS..You can judge yourself though…It will make you a better person #inshaAllah.
SERIOUSLY.
lol..
a short one.
Min Manan
wassalam
Bismillahirahmanirahim.
Assalamualaikum .
Read my old posts..and yeah.
Lately I’ve been not in the mood huh.
I’ve been “emo-ing”.
I’ve not been in my best state.
Mood level=down.
But why?…I myself is confused.
I can be Doing other beneficial stuffs than this.
I can actually do something good.
And am stuck here.
O Allah…help me.
Idk how sincere I am..but surely..this is all from the bottom of my heart.
I’m afraid that I would fall and never get back up again.
I’m afraid I would stray away from your path.
O Allah…shine on me your Hidayah.
Give me strength to overcome this.
Cos am weak…
Am a weak person..
Who’s easily get caught by his nafsu.
I need to start this.
And O Allah.
Help her too.
Cos she’s been through a lot.
Give her strength to overcome all those challenges.
Keep her safe.
Cos you know…
That’s the least I could do.
To pray.
At least.
Now am gonna start.
And for whoever is reading this out there.
Pray for me.
Cos I’ll pray for all my brothers and sisters out there too.
Wassalam.
Min Manan
I looked at myself…And wow???!!!!….Am I this blinded by the world?!..
Seriously.There are more to this…There are freaking more…
I just need to open my eyes wider and see the world for what it really is.
I need Allah :’(..It’s been a long time since I’ve went to any majlis ilmu/zikir.
…
AllahuAllah..
Allahuakbar..
Hasbi rabbi..jalallah..ma fi qalbi…ghairullah..nur muhammad..solallah…laa ila ha ilallah…
:’(
Jom kite g same2?.
Yours sincerely,
Min Manan
Yes..That’s what am gonna do.
Forget everything.
No use thinking about all of this.
It is affecting me forAllahsakeee!
And I’m lagging behind.
Why?
Why am I so narrow minded.?
Now.
I need to start.
A new chapter perhaps?
I really need to buck up.
And change to 3rd gear.
To catch up with the rest.
If not….I will fall…deeply…And I’m scared I’ll never get back up.
Just forget.
Yours sincerely,
Min Manan.
I guess..I am too late.
Am stupid.
And I just realize this.
I really do.
Truly.
She is that something missing.
But I can’t go any further.
Cos I know.
I’ll make things worse.
So just be that person
To make her happy.
Even when things goes not in my liking.
Ill have to deal with it.
Cos I started it.
Hence.
I have to bare with it.
At least She’s there.
Rather than a stranger.
The important thing is that.
She’s there.
Now..My strategy is to just do what i like.
To take my mind out of it.
Cos it really is killing me.
Song writing.
Song composing.
Singing(despite my r karatness)
..Yeah..
BUT HOW?..MY ENGLIZH PECAHHH!…>.<
Wishlist.:
I need a mac.
A microphone.
A mini studio
A new watch(cos i lost my old one).
And a friend.
A friend.That’s what i really need now…
I don’t care about girlfriends or what not..
just that.
Cos losing a friend is more precious than losing yourself.
cos a true friend would help you to show your true self if when you’re lost.
Now am lost.
But what if i fall for it again.
what if that feelings came back.
and you can’t do anything.
But just to sit and watch.
Them having the time of their lives.
so do i stuck being friendless?
before those feelings came up.
cos am SURE it will do.
Cos you mean alot to me.
even if the things I’ve said and done.
But you’re different.
I still felt something missing without you.
Cos of my actions.
I can’t even go near you.
I can’t even…say a hello..
I can’t even face you in the eye
cos the things that i had done.
those things that i broke.
can’t be fixed.
So let me just wander this streets alone.
Let the rain falls without any rainbows.
let it all swept away by fate.
“cos when you care for a person,you’ll do anything to make her happy..Even if she’s with someone else or without you in her life.”-someone.
Before you can grow up, you must fall in love 3 times.
Once you must fall in love with your best friend, ruining your friendship forever. This will teach you who your true friends are, and the fine line between friendship and more.
Once you must fall in love with someone you believe to be perfect. You will learn that no one is perfect, and that you should never be treated as any less than you deserve.
And once you must fall in love with someone that is exactly like you. This will teach you about who you are, and who you want to be.
And when you’re through with all that, you learn that the people who care about you the most are the ones that you hurt, and the ones that hurt you are the ones that you needed the most.
But most of all, you learn that love is only a concept and is not something that can be defined, it is different to each person that experiences it. And you will learn to respect each and every person on this earth, knowing that everyone only wants to be loved.
So.Today.20/01/2012.current location?..A mcdonald’s Outlet somewhere in angmokio , eating a filet-o-fish meal…While I got a practical test ..like Now…At 9.00..And time check…9.34 AM…The thing is..I woke up late..Around 7.50 AM..So I rushed …Went out from house at 8.05 AM…Thought that I could make it with the help of a cab…But well..I was wrong…Waited for 40 mins..Not a single AVAILABLE Cab was seen…So…I gave up…And here I am..With the music blasting out in the macdonalds speakers,eating my filet-o-fish..Writing this…LikeABoss..-,-
Just what happened to me?..Is this the real me?…Am I This kinda person..Sometimes I wonder..Well…Now am wondering…
Just what happened to that min that will still comes to school even if he’s late for school for like an hour…What happened to that kid who will always smile even if there’ problems…What happened to the min that will always look at the brighter side of life…
Looking at what I describe about me..Well I couldn’t believe…Now…I look at myself….Omg what happened?…Is it because of relationship problems?!…Couldn’t be…Cos I faced a lot like it in my past..I think can handle this….I think….But hey…Takkan pasal ni je kan..Min…Come on…You look so lifeless..Smile.
But it really is hard..To fake a smile..i don’t know….Now…I only feel sadness in my life…Why?…This isn’t me…I really need to buck up..I really need a tight slap to this cheeks…Someone?!…
And yeah…One of my classmates just called..Didn’t pick up…”why won’t you come to class??..Got practical test you know..”..blablablabla….well…yeah…thanks bro for caring..:)…well..seems like..bye-bye to my 25% for that module…Hey..he messaged…Teacher ask me to come for 10AM to take it…WELL…LOOK AT THE TIME NOW…9.47AM…Nice…
If I just continued my journey to school..I could make it..But I chose to give up…WHY?!!!!!….
I need to do something about this..
Abdul Muhaimin Bin Abd.Manan…Who is this kid?…Where’s the real him?…questions that I often question myself.
Well here’s the story about girls.
They will always come up to you and said something like ~”OMG am not pretty~”…”Need to buy a lot of make up products “…The saaame old thing..hahaha…*sorry for those yg terkene…hehe”
KAY..THE THING IS..YOU GUYS ARE BEAUTIFUL THE WAY YOU ARE!..WAKE UP..
this is not some jasan mraz or one direction shitties…BUT SERIOUSLY GIRLS….Don’t say things that will just bring your self esteem down…Don’t,,,Be confident for who you are..Allah created you that way…So be as awesome as the way you are.
WHat people think about you is…Well…Ignore them..Don’t bother about their comments/critics.
If they dislike you just because you look that way…They don’t deserve to be your friend.They are just little devils that wants to destroy your confidence…
THATS ALL..=)
Min Manan
P.s..I wrote this during a bus ride to school..
YES AM AWESOMEEEEE >.<
